well i'm sure i have, but at this moment i am so alone.
there is nobody in kearney who i can completely rely on.
sadie is the only person and i feel bad for being so emotional with her.
i miss alison and mary. i wish i lindsey and i were closer, but i don't see that happening anytime soon.
i feel like all i've been doing is studying and crying.
what kinda life is this? is this what i really wanted?
why did i come to kearney in the first place?
to get away from everything in Lincoln,
but all i want to do now is run back to everything i was running away from.
i can't look back and i know that,
but right now i can't even look forward.
so what am i doing all of this for?