ok i'm done. i just realized that i'm naive in thinking that something can go my way every once in a while. i'm stupid to think that i fit in. i'm wrong to think that i'm important. i misunderstood that i thought i was happy. i was, but it faded. i feel jaded. oh this feeling inside of me. i need to put my writing on this thing, but can't. idk, scared maybe? if so that is sad. SAD!!! happy? nope... seems like a false word... a made up word.
ah, i'm over it... so so so so so so over it.
i have no lid upon my head but if i did... you could look inside and see what's on my mind
-dave matthews band
after my talk with carrie though the song that i first heard was dare you to move by switchfoot... on a radio station, so if that's not a sign of what God wants me to do then i don't know what is. i will lift myself off of the floor and move... i'm moving on.