well, i haven't written in forever... but i need to so i am
well, hopefully homecoming will still be fun without a date. this is my first year that i'm every going to not have a date... it's kinda weird. i'm kinda upset about it because tommy was 'going to ask me' according to alicia and zane, but he decided that when he was drunk he'd say yes to this girl who asked him named heather noel. i dont' know her, but i really could care less who she is right now because i hate her. i'm pissed that he even said yes, when i was told by so many people, 'o yeah he wants to ask you, but he doesn't know when... he thinks your soo cool blah blah blah' it's all a crock of shit. whatever though. i don't want people's sympathy though because it's just kinda annoying when people are like ooooo i'm sooo sorry!!!! are you ok???? i'm just like get off. i just told you because i don't want all these people being like ooo so is tommy going to ask you??? ugh. guys are gay and homecoming is gay. not really, i'm just thinking very negative right now. it will pass over.... it always does.
i've dealt with my ghosts and i've faced all my demons, finally content with a past i regret. i've found you find strength in your moments of weakness, for once i'm at peace with myself. i've been burdened with blame, trapped in the past for too long... i'm moving on. i'm moving on... at last i can see, life has been patiently waiting for me and i know there's no guarantee, but i'm not alone. there comes a time in everyone's life, where all you can see is the years passing by and i've made up my mind that those days are gone. - rascal flatts